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I never expected to fall this much in love with another human. I've been in love, have felt that infatuation, that need to be where the other person is, that drive to do anything to be with them. I had that when my hubby and I were courting. I may have had it with other relationships before him. I was certain that when we got married, it would be the last time I felt that way about someone. I was mistaken.

I still love my husband dearly, but over the last 5 years, the heart-racing, mind-consuming love has turned into the deep, committed, beautiful and lasting love of a lifetime partner. And it's wonderful!

This little man has completely won my heart in the time it takes for him to fall sound asleep on my chest after a feed. I love absolutely everything about him, from his tiny little nose, to the way he curls up like a little rock on my chest, to the cute little cry, and the sneaky look he gets when he's digging in for a meal. He has so much of his brothers in him, yet he is completely his own little personality. I love him.

What makes me most excited, though, is the way his brothers dote on him, the way they already include him in their games and conversations, the way Teeny tells me, "I want to kiss little baby Samuel on his forehead." One of my most frequent prayers has been that they would love him and not feel threatened by his presence, and I haven't felt that from either of them one bit. Isaac just came up the stairs and turned around and pointed and said, "There's baby Samuel," and walked on. On his way back down the stairs, he waved and said, "I will see you when I get back up." 

I love how they say his name too. Isaac has a slight lisp, so Samuel comes out "Thhhamuel" each time. Tyson uses the most robotic voice to tell him, "It will be all right, baby Samuel." It is adorable.

I know it won't always be this way; the sibling rivalry will eventually rear its ugly head, the twins will resent having to share everything they own with yet another person, but for today, it is all I could ask for.

Today's encouraging verse: "And when God had me wander from my father's household, I said to her, 'This is how you can show your love to me: everywhere we go, say of me, "He is my brother." ' " Genesis 20:13